Lesson #19288713...(will probably have to be relearned, again.)

...sometimes...being prepared and perfect is what you need.
Your notes written.
Your speech rehearsed.
Your shoes shined.
Your appearance immaculate.
...Your "i's" dotted and your "t's" crossed.

But, sometimes...being unprepared and imperfect is just what God needs to awe the socks off of you.

Getting over the hump of coming to God only when you're clean and perfect...?
Lets be honest...its battle, a struggle, a false hope..(or dare a say a hope with a rope? ) lol

Allowing God to come to you at your most imperfect state?
Well....that's just how He works!

"But i will hope continually, and will praise You yet more and more." (Psalm 71:14)

Love,
Ness.

Just for now.

I will get back to you on the reason of my previous post...just not yet.

ALSO, i will comment...soon! Just not yet...

Until then... i just wanted to share this beauty with all of you bloggy buddies.

Did i ever mention that i love ruffles??!
'Cuz i just do. Insanely.

Love,
Ness.

Hope.

But as for me, I will look to the Lord and confident in Him I will keep watch; I will wait with hope and expectancy for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me. Micah 7: 7
....

Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord. Psalm 27: 14

....

sometimes... a glimmer of hope is all that is needed...

Love,

Ness.

Materialistic thursday..

Lets pretend you are out shopping for Christmas presents...for me. Sound good? good!
I would like...

1) A sequined cardi.... i want to be seen a mile away and be remembered as the sparkly one...maybe.


2) A lace pencil skirt...because seriously? I love lace (and ruffles!)!!


3) This coat...(i know, i know its Hollister)..but it looks SO inviting!!


4) Because...well, really? =)
..i love it!


Aaaannnd guess whose procrastinating right now???
Wild guess..
=)

Luurrve,
Ness.

Procrastination.

Here are the Rules:

1. You Can Only Use One Word!
2. Pass this along to your favorite bloggers!
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!

1. Where is your cell phone? near

2. Your hair? cRaZy
3. Your mother? funny
4. Your father? best
5. Your favorite food? chips!
6. Your dream last night? unmemorable
7. Your favorite drink? wataaah
8. Your dream/goal? missionary
9. What room are you in? bedroom
10. Your hobby? styling
11. Your fear? failure
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Blessed
13. Where were you last night? home
14. Something that you aren’t? lame
15. Muffins? unnecessary
16. Wish list item? NEWcar
17. Where did you grow up? northwest (and some GA!)
18. Last thing you did? coffee
19. What are you wearing? bf jeans
20. Your TV? hills
21. Your pets? snoop
(my kitty loves climbing up to my window to stare at me ..changing and all!!)
22. Friends? happy
23. Your life? Blessed
24. Your mood? TIRED
25. Missing someone? bff
26. Vehicle? silver
27. Something you’re not wearing? bikini
28. Your favorite store? grocery....& f21
29. Your favorite color? skittles
30. When was the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? sunday..?
32. Your best friend? rocks
33. One place that you go to over and over? kitchen...& mall.
34. One person who emails me regularly? profs, ha!
35. Favorite place to eat? panera (for this week)

Read this??
Niiiice.
Youre tagged!!!

Therapy.

Really adds up...

But oh! how fun it is!!!

Welcome to the family..

Now i must go do a billion hours of HW, get over anxiety, drive far far away for a meeting, then go kick my booty at the gym (for gaining aunt flo weight), and do some more HW...and not think about food or shopping.

But, really?
Really, really?

I need to kneel down and pray to God, to get me through my little struggles and inner battles..and remember that when i fall...I'm only a failure if i stay there. And I refuse to stay there.

We (Jesus and I) can make it through.
I believe it.

And yes, i know shopping is not always the best outlet... i have come to realize that at times i have convinced myself that it is more accessible than prayer and time with the Word... the power of both (praying and the Bible, not shopping!) is where i always find renewal and strength to carry on through another day..

Soo, see? I know what to do. I just have to do it.
Nike was right.
siiigh.
"Just do it" i will.

Do any of you have unhealthy outlets sometimes?
...or a "just do it!" moment?

I hope I'm not alone here!

Luurve,
Ness.

p.s.
Excuse the ramblingness of this post...my brain doesn't like order or boundaries.=)

Hmm..my mouth and my thoughts.

Am i a girl..i wonder.
Because i don't think i am ... some days!

I mean, yea, you will totally catch me in ruffles and heels...
but you totally wouldn't associate that with my mouth

I don't have a potty mouth.. (i HATE dirty language and cursing!)

But...

My oh my... i have a smart mouth.

I say things i totally grimace at...a LOT!
I have been known to be a class clown...(once i get over my initial shyness).
...And once i get on a roll...oh man...you will be crying from laughter. Guaranteed.

And you know that silent laughter?? The one where you are laughing so hard you cant make a sound and your stomach is about to burst?

My record time for doing that to some of my girls...was apx. 10 minutes.
Silent. FALLING out of your seat. Tears. Pain.
Kind of laughing.
It is memorable to this day.

I can get that bad (not dirty bad!) with my jokes.

Not to toot my own horn (toot, toot!)...but i can be very, really funny.

..And I'm starting to think i need to stop.
..being funny that is.
...and being so dang prideful right now!
yeesh.

My brother thinks my smart mouth only belongs in NYC...
and i wouldn't mind it...

But...
until my NYC dreams come to fusion..

I think i have to tone it down.

And learn to be a demure, sweet, eyelash batting, non loud mouth ... GIRL.

Sure...i was raised by boys.
Which explains my behavior...and humor.
...and need to be such a smart mouth...and have a retort and joke for everything..

But it doesn't explain my love for pink and lace...
and Barbies,
Sparkly things,
Shoes,
andohSOmuschmore.

So I've come to the conclusion that i do indeed have some girl deep in me...but my mouth needs to stop.
I start to feel self conscious about it...especially when you are totally shutting down someones game...because you are wa-A-ay funnier...

Oh Lord.

Its bad.

i have to stop crossing the line...its become a horrible habit.

SO!..i realize i have a problem...but the solution? Oy.

Does anyone understand where I'm coming from??
(it sounds clear in my head, this problem, but you may be scratching your heads..
see? Bad.)

And sometimes i feel like this line crossing is not good.

Matthew 15:11 : "Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the mouth, this defileth a man."

Matthew 15:18 : "But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these make a man `unclean'. "

I understand joking etc. is okay...but...when is it too much??
When do you say, "dear mouth, shut up and stop talking up a fool storm?"

I know its something that needs to be worked on...

Toned down a bit at least.

And watched.

because....
"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer." (Ps 19:14)

I feel like that is not always the case...and it has not been sitting at peace with me.

And its gotta change.
Or...be refined.
right?
...

Xo,
Nessa.

p.s.

you knew it was coming. =) lol

Yes..i got this.. in red.



I bought it from Express about a year ago..but returned it..
And then i saw it today at Marshalls for under $20.
Beyond fab steal.
Someones happy. =)

A lover of quotes,

“God has editing rights over our prayers. He will... edit them, correct them, bring them in line with His will and then hand them back to us to be resubmitted.”

-Stephen Crotts

..how true is this?

As i think back on how some of my prayers changed...its surprises me to see how the Lord has reshaped my heart and thinking.. and praying..and i love it...despite the HARD work it took.

Have any of you noticed how your prayers have changed as your relationship with the Lord grew?

..and a few more! =)

“Don't pray for lighter burdens, but for stronger backs.”

“There is a vast difference between saying prayers and praying”

“Courage is fear that has said its prayers.”

“Most people do not pray; they only beg.”

“All prayers are answered if we are willing to admit that sometimes the answer is "no”.

“It is for us to pray not for tasks equal to our powers, but for powers equal to our tasks, to go forward with a great desire forever beating at the door of our hearts as we travel toward our distant goal.”

-Helen Keller

Lurrve,

nessa.

scrumpdillyicious

You know it.

..and this is why?

So..rereading last nights late-night post only reinstated what we all already know..i am a dork. =)

SO...where oh where in the world have i been?!

I wish i could say something exciting like.." i was in the jungles of Kenya teaching chimpanzees how to speak sign language, in Russian." ..but we would all be able to quickly tell i was lying. Because i am a horrible liar...so i just don't, plus my guilty conscience (aka sin-radar) would be off the hook with guilt.

Where was i?

Oh yes, this brings me back to the initial question was: "Where was i?" Hmm.

I've been doing a bit of everything.

As some may know I've had a difficult "woe is me" summer and was not the best blogger. I cant believe i used to actually post everyday before summer..that seems like eons and few followers ago!

Anyways..i want to say "im baaAack!" but...*crickets*...Ive already used that line..a few times. Obviously, i lied. (hello there radar, yes i hear you.)

Anyways, i just thought i would officially let you know that i will not be blogging as much as i used to (breaking news) ...but will still truly remain your personal blogstalker and cruddy commenter ..from time to time. =)

Right now I'm working on a few things... I'm focusing (or trying very hard to TRY to! lol )all my energy on GOD and school.

Finding a job i like and staying in shape are up there...

along with a few other things.

But really our God is an awesome God, and i love to get closer to Him...it feels sooo good. So right. Not always easy,..but pure and just good.

I want to focus on college to the best of my ability (hello potential 4.0)... and show Bob ('member him?) and myself..that "I can do ALL things through Christ, who strengthens me." ..I can, i can, i can. Can i get an "amen"? =)

So that's that..and that is why the world rotates on its axis. Mmhmm.

Love ya,
Nessa

p.s.

You know my love for ruffles, yes?
Check it.



I cant decide if this is fabulously pretty..or uglyish. Torn.
Whatcha think?